Hello eveybody! Maybe you all already forgot who am I because of my hiatus for so long time. Do you know why I titled it as "back"? This "back" doesn't mean I'll back to blog everytime but this "back" mean I'll back as the old me.
I just want to share some problems that happen to me lately. Just like as 3 years ago I had a broken relationship with someone I love so much but this one is more hurt and pathetic. I don't want to share my story here because I know the place where I should share my story to :)
I've been so desperate lately (uhmm maybe I always be the desperate one, lol). But surely this moment make me so weak and lost my faith in love. I really love my ex so much but the way he hurt me couldn't make me as normal as before. I felt so damn sad and disappointed because he broke his promises but you all know that an ex is should be an ex and there're reasons why he is not in my future. I don't want to talk about him here. But you all must know he was the sweetest one I ever had and I will never ever forget him, I swear!
I can't open my email account recently and of course my blog too. But already I got the recovery and can write my post again. Well, the first thing I did when I open my blog was checking my old post and do you know what? I found my old post about lovelife and it was looks like what I should face now! I never realized why I changed a lot and I became immature not mature. 3 years ago I was so wise and so realistic. I know he didn't want me so I tried to walked away and moved on but now even though I know he really hate me and won't come back I still waiting and trying to change. Oh God I wish I was the "old me". But the best thing about being me at this moment is I trust God and believe that God will give me someone better not like 3 years ago(I ever thought to be an atheis lol). I really thank God to push me away from him because I know I deserve someone better. Oh yea he already replaced me in two weeks after broke up... what a jerk.
Well, in the end I'm sorry if my post will offend to someone but I write it as I want to. This is my blog and I don't care what they will say. Happy Sunday all! Don't forget to go to church today. God bless! :D
